Grief

#RunLikeKeith June Update (and fundraiser!)

I haven’t written much about my half marathon training recently, so it’s about time I do! Plus, I have some exciting news… First, the training update. I had to take almost two weeks off due to travel and an epic stomach bug. It’s been really hard to get back in the swing of things both…

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Reflections From An Air Force Widow

This post is not meant to upstage anyone who is struggling this Memorial Day due to the loss of a loved one or with PTSD of lost airmen, soldiers, and sailors. This can be a difficult holiday for so many reasons. Memorial Day has crept up and taken me by surprise. I do not presume…

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When Your Heart Feels Scraped Open

When I was in Kindergarten I remember being impressed with the fact that my knees were constantly scraped open. I laugh now thinking about how it was because of my inability to walk anywhere without tripping over myself. Regardless of how I achieved the look, I had scars on my knees until 5th grade. My…

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Four Months Later

Today is four months since Keith passed away. It feels like it could be years. And yet, I still have regular flashbacks that make it feel like he’s still here and still sick. As much as I miss him and find myself in disbelief that I’m having to parent alone, without my teammate, I am…

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Worn

  Today was supposed to be Day One of #runlikekeith half marathon training. We got up and out the door despite toddler protests to meet friends. We got there and got kids buckled in strollers and as I pushed the stroller to everyone else, the front wheel popped off with a bent axle.  After an…

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#RunLikeKeith

Any of you who have known Keith for any amount of time know that Keith was an avid runner. He started running in high school and found that it was the best way for him to burn off steam and work through life. He had hoped to run a marathon in his lifetime, but never…

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Easter is Real

I realized a week or so ago that Easter is exactly three months from when Keith passed away and it made me realize the huge emotional journey I’ve been on. Being a caregiver during the serious illness of a loved one is overwhelming. During Keith’s latest battle with cancer, life often felt like we were…

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The First Three Months (on grief and surviving)

Easter Sunday will mark three months without Keith. My head feels like it is spinning when I remember he is really gone. These last three months have flown by but also feel like it’s been years since I last sat with Keith in the hospital. I miss his friendship. Caleb does so many quirky, loveable,…

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A Really Good Day

It’s not often in the throes of grief or newborn land that you get a really good day. Especially not after a week of stomach bugs and never ending snow. Today was a good day. I got myself and the kiddos dressed at in the car with enough time to only be 5-10 minutes late…

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Hidden Treasures: Encouragement For The Hard Days

I feel like my brain is tripping over itself trying to write this post. The last few days have been such that the memorial service we had for Keith Saturday seems like a distant memory. It has been five days of colds, GI bugs, middle of the night laundry and baths, and not enough sleep….

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