Grief

Easter Is Freedom

I’ve been thinking a lot about what to write for Easter this year. Since I lost my dad 18 months ago, Easter is forever changed. I understand how Jesus’ friends and family felt as they watched him die, as they buried him, and as they tried to make sense of it all. Easter is an emotionally confusing…

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This IS My Life (Grief & Motherhood)

Ever have those moments when you think you can’t wait til your life gets back to normal? Lately I’ve been dreaming of the days when I’m not coercing a toddler, when I don’t miss dad so much, when I actually wake up feeling rested, when the fridge isn’t empty, when the laundry basket isn’t full,…

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For When Life Piles Up (Grief & Other Stressful Things)

From the ends of the earth, I cry to you for helpwhen my heart is overwhelmed. Lead me to the towering rock of safety. Psalm 61:2 The past 7-9 years have been a series of big ups and bigger downs. I’ve experienced more before the age of 30 than most people experience in a life time….

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Small Enough

There are a few crazy people out there who actually love winter. The rest of us enjoy a good snowstorm and then start the count down to spring. This winter has had much more of an emotional impact on my than I had imagined. I feel like this season has left me wanting to dig…

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Dear Dad: I Miss You

NOTE: This post is kind of erratic. I wrote it a few days ago and have been feeling pretty anal about it not flowing as well as I’d like it to. Yet, this is how it came out of my head and I’m all about sharing my experience authentically. So, here’s the most disorganized post…

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For When It Just Keeps Coming

We all experience different seasons in our lives. The last few years have been one long season of loss. Yesterday, Keith’s grampa passed away, one of our dear friends is still very ill, and another close friend’s dad’s cancer is back with a vengeance. Many of our friends and family are experiencing the loss of…

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I Saw The Lord

Do you ever have those times in your life when you are so very painfully aware of your brokenness. I don’t mean broken like sad broken or hurt broken or sick broken. I’m talking about the broken we can all identify with: human broken. If you’re not broken, then you’re kidding yourself. We all have…

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Dear Caleb: On the Night You Were Born

Dear Caleb: The night you were born was so bittersweet. As we were saying hello to you, we were saying goodbye to Grandpa Mike. You spent just 8 hours together on Earth, but never got to meet. Even when I might be sad on your birthday because I miss Grandpa Mike, know that you are…

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Sandy

Sandy data from 11/1/12 [source] The one year anniversary of Hurricane Sandy is all over the news. The storm that destroyed the Jersey Shore and continues to impact thousands of people’s lives holds completely different meaning for me. While the East Coast was bracing for a hurricane last October 29th, I was on the West…

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Dear Dad: Early Mornings

Dear Dad: We got to spend a night at the lake this week. When I woke up in the morning, there was fog on the lake and the trees were brilliantly colored. I could almost see you out in a kayak, enjoying the silence and peace of the early mornings. Getting up early with Caleb…

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