Grief

GriefShare

Last night was my first time at the GriefShare meeting our church hosts. Man, I’m so glad I found this program. From the second I walked in the door, I realized I had finally found a place where I feel I can be completely comfortable with my grief. Everyone in the room was grieving and…

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Advice on Grieving

I’ve come to realize something really dangerous about grief: avoidance. It’s worse than denial and much more sneaky. “If I avoid thinking about dad, I won’t be sad anymore.” “If I don’t talk about dad, then I won’t have to think about grief and I can be done with it.” Nope, wrong answer. Grief must…

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Grief Spirals

A friend posted this quote on Facebook this morning and it’s exactly how every grieving person feels, but can never vocalize: “For in grief nothing “stays put.” One keeps on emerging from a phase, but it always recurs. Round and round. Everything repeats. Am I going in circles, or dare I hope I am on…

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Dear Dad: Happy Birthday

Dear Dad: I have been dreading this week for a year now. Last year on your birthday, I was with you in the hospital after your surgery. I bought you dental floss and disposable razors and deodorant from the gift shop because that’s what you wanted. I splurged on a Happy Birthday balloon, but you…

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In This World There’s A Whole Lot of Trouble

In this world there’s a whole lot of trouble, baby In this world there’s a whole lot of pain In this world there’s a whole lot of trouble But a whole lot of ground to gain In this world there’s a whole lot of sorrow In this world there’s a whole lot of shame In…

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Angel’s Landing 2013

I am writing a bit out of order (isn’t that what happens when you become a mama: things start to get out of order?!). About a week ago, I posted a “vlog” about how Grief Is Real. We were hiking in Zion National Park and I couldn’t finish the hike; my emotions overwhelmed me and…

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Dear Dad: It Takes a Village

Dear Dad: I have been so thankful for all of the friends and family that have surrounded us to encourage and support us in raising Caleb. The best parenting definitely includes a village of helping hands! Over the last six months, I have realized that a village of helpers is equally important in grief. Two…

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Dear Dad: Grief Is A Journey

Dear Dad: We are in Bolivia for another 1.5 weeks and today Caleb and I are stuck at home because of the blockades all around the city. Keith had to walk to work; it’s an insane, long, uphill walk, poor guy! The blockades have been making me think about my grief journey, though. While everyone…

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Dear Dad: Easter

Dear Dad: How on earth has it been 5 months already? I feel like it was just yesterday we were wandering along the edge of Bryce Canyon together, talking about your grandson and all the adventures we’d take him on. We celebrated Easter today (another holiday without you) and I’m seeing it in a whole…

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Dear Dad: Valentine’s Day

Dear Dad: I’ve never been a huge celebrater of Valentine’s Day; you and mom did a great job of demystifying such a silly holiday. Today just feels different – somehow this “holiday” is making me miss you more than Thanksgiving or Christmas. Every year, you always found the silliest cards and filled them with affirmations…

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