A lot of people claim one specific word at the beginning of each year as a theme for the year. While I like the idea behind it, I can never narrow it down to just one word. I wasn’t really feeling inspired until today when I realized that this year I am grabbing my fears by the horns and conquering them. This year I am conquering fears.
Did you know that, “do not be afraid” is the most used phrase in the bible? That has always fascinated me.
I have become aware of quite a few things that I have avoided doing out of fear.
I fear that I will never lose weight; that my body is physically unable to.
It’s completely illogical, but who said fear is rational?!
Until a few days ago, I was petrified of playing piano in front of people. In fact, I have made a point since high school of not telling people I play. Saturday I made myself play for two very accomplished musicians and the risk was worth it. My fear was that any mistakes I made as a pianist would reflect on me as a person. Completely irrational, but something I have struggled with for 10 years.
There’s no pressure. As I discover an irrational fear, I try to figure out how it developed and how I can overcome it. No deadlines, no number of fears to overcome, just working through them and living with more awareness. I refuse to be held back by fears any longer.