At dinner with family friends Sunday night, I was struck by a passage out of the book Daily With The King. The author (W Glyn Evans) describes how God wants us to know and trust him; God “demolishes our security” in what seems most important in order to force us to find our security in him.
I thought this was a really neat concept. God does not simply distract us from what makes us feel secure, or temporarily remove that security, he smashes and destroys it. He is the most qualified to keep me safe, and yet, I still try to be in control and am surprised when things don’t go my way.
Tonight is a perfect example. Tomorrow Caleb and I head back to Las Vegas and I was just about packed and ready to go with hours left to hang out with mom and Molly. I drove down to the Post Office and mailed two packages of Christmas gifts home. I got home and gathered the last of our things into a pile and my heart sank as I realized that I had just mailed Caleb’s birth certificate home. The Post Office had just closed, so we decided it wasn’t a good idea to break in and rifle through the packages in order to find that one little envelope that I accidentally packed in with everything else.
Why does the 2 month old need proof of his being under 2 years old? No one knows. The TSA representative I spoke with said that it is ridiculous and the reason why TSA doesn’t require any identification for passengers under 18 years of age. And yet, our airline requires an official document proving his date of birth.
Apparently, my security lies in my ability to stay organized.
I think my father-in-law’s illustration in his sermon Sunday was perfect. A couple weeks ago, when he had a cold, Caleb was just miserable. He just wanted to be snuggled. Bebo (my niece’s version of ‘baldy’) was so compassionate and spent hours holding Caleb and walking with him. His compassion for Caleb and his comforting and secure arms are just like God’s arms. He wishes to hold me close and be my security.
The eternal God is your refuge, and his everlasting arms are under you. Deuteronomy 33:27a
All this makes me think of the song “Try” by Pink. Not only is the song amazing, but her performance at the 2012 AMAs was incredible. I hope it might encourage you to keep going and “try, try, try.”