Gifts of Grace
With the anniversary of dad’s death and being at the same point in pregnancy when he got sick, I’ve been reflecting a lot lately on those times when life feels heavy and unbearable. Unfortunately, in my 28 years, I’ve had way too many of those seasons: too much sickness, too much pain, too much loss, too much struggle, and too much death. I always joke to friends that they may want to reconsider hanging out with me because being part of my life is not always fun. There is no one who gets to avoid hard times, so it’s important that we choose to handle them wisely.
I stumbled across this poem today and thought it was remarkable:
The falling rain of yesterday is ruby on the roses,
Silver on the poplar leaf, and gold on willow stem;
The grief that fell just yesterday is silence that encloses
God’s great gifts of grace, and time will never trouble them.
The falling rain of yesterday makes all the hillsides glisten,
Coral on the laurel and beryl on the grass;
The grief that fell just yesterday has taught the soul to listen
For whispers of eternity in all the winds that pass.
O faint of heart, storm-beaten, this rain will shine tomorrow,
Flame within the columbine and jewels on the thorn,
Heaven in the forget-me-not; though sorrow now is sorrow,
Yet sorrow will be beauty in the magic of the morn.
(Katherine Lee Bates)
I love the line “the grief that fell just yesterday is silence that encloses God’s great gifts of grace, and time will never trouble them.” The grace we are given during those hard, troubling times is protected: God’s grace will never fade or be disturbed. I’ve seen God’s grace in the joy that Caleb brings to a room, in the memories of a dad who loved me dearly, in the surprising moments of laughter when I thought there would be tears, and in all the ways I’ve grown and am still standing tall after everything that has happened.
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. (John 14:27)
Pregnancy brain has kept me from finishing my 31 Days of Real Life series, but I promise I’ll post the remainder of the photos soon!