I WILL see goodness…
This was the verse of the day on the YouVersion app a few days ago and I thought it was exactly my attitude for this season of life. That may seem bizarre to you – my dad is battling an aggressive disease 3000 miles away and I’m figuring out how to deal with it through the hormones and impending changes that come with pregnancy.
And yet, we have seen so much goodness, so many blessings, over the last two months. The friends and family that have served us so faithfully; the doctor appointments that have been scheduled with miraculous timing; a wonderfully healthy, active baby on the way; medical staff that show more compassion and love than their job calls for; and people whose lives have been changed by my dad’s story.
I recently started the Mercy Triumphs study on James by Beth Moore and it is already expanding my ideas about God’s goodness.
“Your life may be challenging, but it never needs be empty…He is just making space for grace.” Beth Moore
What a standard to live by – I refuse to feel empty!
How on earth could I be filled up when life is troubling? What could be more important than dad’s health?
“I passed on to you what was most important and what had also been passed on to me. Christ died for our sins, just as the Scriptures said. He was buried, and he was raised from the dead on the third day, just as the Scriptures said.” 1 Corinthians 15:3-4
I realize that some of you may be rolling your eyes. “There she goes again with that Jesus talk.” But you have to understand that he has changed my life. He is the reason why I can face this challenging season of life with a smile and see the goodness around me.
Beth Moore really made me think:
“When you need him so desperately, he will be there.”
So often we demand that God show up and prove himself through miracles and healing. If he doesn’t show up, then how could he care, how could he really be the God of all things?
Don’t you see that he is doing miracles? Dad’s cancer is so aggressive, it’s a miracle he has been able to live pain free for a while. Getting appointments with the top doctors at such a quick pace that even the nurses are surprised – that’s definitely a miracle. There are miracles in every day life as I watch friends and family go from searching for meaning in life, to trusting that God is there.
“But I called on your name, Lord, from deep within the pit.You heard me when I cried, ‘Listen to my pleading! Hear my cry for help!’ Yes, you came when I called; you told me, ‘Do not fear.'” Lamentations 3:55-57
I have called out and God has answered. Sometimes he answers in big and obvious ways. Sometimes it is in quiet subtle ways that I don’t quite notice.
Either way, he is just waiting for you. He wants to rescue you from emptiness and fill you with his grace. His grace will change you and you’ll never regret it.