There are a few crazy people out there who actually love winter. The rest of us enjoy a good snowstorm and then start the count down to spring.
This winter has had much more of an emotional impact on my than I had imagined. I feel like this season has left me wanting to dig out of the heaviness of life and waiting for signs that things will get better.
I’ve chosen not to list the things that are weighing down on me; this post is not an opportunity to complain, but to be real. Some of you know the challenges I’m facing at the moment, but the details don’t change the fact that we all have more challenging seasons of life and other times when the ice thaws, the flowers bloom, and we feel like things are “easy”.
The song “Small Enough” by Nichole Nordeman came on in the car the other day and it summed up exactly what I’m feeling. I’ll embed the entire song at the bottom of the post.
oh, great god, be close enough to feel you now
there have been moments when i could not
face goliath on my own
and how could i forget we’ve marched around
our share of jerichos
but i will not be setting out a fleece for you tonight
just wanna know that everything will be alright
oh great god, be close enough to feel you now
There’s more allegory in the lyrics than I necessarily want to dive into in this post, but I just love how she’s crying out to God – not for answers, but for intimacy and comfort. One day the storms will pass and life will be sunny for awhile. But for now, I’m hunkering down and learning to experience the closeness of the one who will bring my healing (more on that in another post that’s brewing).