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Beginnings Are Complicated

I’ve never had a new beginning without a huge loss at the same time. My husband, Keith, had cancer the year we were engaged. My dad died eight hours after my son (the first grandkid) was born. My husband died one month before our daughter was born. For me, new beginnings are complicated. I’ll never…

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When You Feel Stuck on the Outside of Your Life

A reality of grief and depression is that you often feel stuck outside of your life. Last week, I had a few days where I felt like I was watching my life and not living it. I took deep breaths, trying to ground myself, feeling like I was floating away with nothing to pull me…

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31 Days of Real Life [10/26/16]

Caleb loves the fact that my lovey from childhood is a bear. He’s always wanting to snuggle on the couch with our bears and one night he insisted I take mine to bed with me. I did it begrudgingly and was pleasantly surprised at how comforting it was to sleep with my first friend. I often…

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31 Days of Real Life [10/28/16]

It was a terrible day. The kind of day that wants to make you avoid days and people and responsibilities for a month or forever. I didn’t feel well. The grief was overwhelming. The kids were not compliant and whining is my nemesis. I let a few friends know that I was struggling and one…

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31 Days of Real Life [10/19/16]

Caleb has been loving taking photos lately. It’s fun to see him being creative and figuring out how the camera works. Boy after my own heart 🙂 And Libby loves having her photo taken! Most of his photos are either selfies or ceiling fans, but here are some of my favorites: Follow the series: Subscribe…

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31 Days of Real Life [10/18/16]

I woke up feeling anxious today. I haven’t been good at taking Zoloft regularly and paid the price today. From the moment my eyes opened, my thoughts were racing and I felt on the verge of tears for no reason. Luckily, Caleb was at my in law’s house and Libby just got a pillow in…

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31 Days of Real Life [10/16/16]

Because sometimes a Sunday is the perfect time for ice cream for dinner. Follow the series: Subscribe to get weekly summaries directly to your inbox.

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31 Days of Real Life [10/15/16]

This boy was my first little buddy. He came into the world during an incredibly difficult season. My dad was dying while I was in labor and eight hours after he entered my life, my dad left it. I didn’t grieve well. I thought I had it all under control, but really I was avoiding…

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31 Days of Real Life [10/12/16]

I have a responsibility complex. I have an internal pressure to be incredibly responsible at all times. Maybe it’s a first born thing or a personality thing. Either way, I’ve been learning that it’s not always healthy to make decisions based on the most responsible choice. Typically, I post a new podcast episode every Thursday,…

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31 Days of Real Life [10/11/16]

Because sometimes you just need ice cream with hot fudge. I started Weight Watchers this summer and did well for a couple months, but then frequent traveling in August and September got me out of the groove. Since October is such a hard month, I decided to take the month off. It hasn’t been easy….

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