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31 Days of Real Life [10/31/16]

Halloween. An exciting day for the kids, but a hard day for me. Dad died four years ago. It’s hard to wrap my mind around that reality. I really struggled this year, missing him in so many ways. He would’ve been best buddies with Caleb and I don’t think he would’ve ever stopped laughing at…

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31 Days of Real Life [10/25/16]

One of my goals for this series was to take a self portrait. I’m not really sure what to say about myself. I look at these photos and there’s something foreign about that face. It’s me, but it’s a version of me that I’m still getting to know. There are pain and scars in those…

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#OnComingAlive

I’m so honored to be part of The On Coming Alive Project. It’s a collection of over 70 voices who have stories of choosing to live after loss. There are stories of lost spouses, siblings, children, and parents. This is a beautiful, heart wrenching collection of honest thoughts on loss, grief, and choosing to live…

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31 Days of Celebrating Real Life [10/6/15]

There’s something really comforting about looking in the rear view mirror and seeing these two faces. When we are in the car together, I feel like our world is insulated a bit. My favorite part of car rides is when they are singing or chatting together. Caleb is constantly making Libby laugh.

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31 Days of Celebrating Real Life [10/3/15]

This child is pure sunshine. She waited a long time to learn how to smile, but she hasn’t stopped smiling since. People often ask if I would have gotten pregnant had I known Keith and our baby would not meet.

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31 Days of Celebrating Real Life [10/1/15]

It’s October, which means I’ve linked up with the 31 Days linky party sponsored by The Nester. This year, I’m still using the “real life” theme, but within the context of my new, real life.

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Gifts of Grace

With the anniversary of dad’s death and being at the same point in pregnancy when he got sick, I’ve been reflecting a lot lately on those times when life feels heavy and unbearable. Unfortunately, in my 28 years, I’ve had way too many of those seasons: too much sickness, too much pain, too much loss,…

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For When Life Piles Up (Grief & Other Stressful Things)

From the ends of the earth, I cry to you for helpwhen my heart is overwhelmed. Lead me to the towering rock of safety. Psalm 61:2 The past 7-9 years have been a series of big ups and bigger downs. I’ve experienced more before the age of 30 than most people experience in a life time….

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For When It Just Keeps Coming

We all experience different seasons in our lives. The last few years have been one long season of loss. Yesterday, Keith’s grampa passed away, one of our dear friends is still very ill, and another close friend’s dad’s cancer is back with a vengeance. Many of our friends and family are experiencing the loss of…

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Dear Dad: I’m Learning To Be Quiet

Dear Dad: I’ve been thinking this past week of all the things you’ve taught me. You taught me to change a tire, the oil filter, and the battery in my car. I grew up learning how to paint trim, cook yummy food, and cut the lawn appropriately for the occasion. You encouraged my curiosity of…

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