life

Beginnings Are Complicated

I’ve never had a new beginning without a huge loss at the same time. My husband, Keith, had cancer the year we were engaged. My dad died eight hours after my son (the first grandkid) was born. My husband died one month before our daughter was born. For me, new beginnings are complicated. I’ll never…

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When You Feel Stuck on the Outside of Your Life

A reality of grief and depression is that you often feel stuck outside of your life. Last week, I had a few days where I felt like I was watching my life and not living it. I took deep breaths, trying to ground myself, feeling like I was floating away with nothing to pull me…

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Ep. 01 – Becky L McCoy; Anxiety, Depression, & Feeling Unloveable

Becky, the host of Sucker Punched, shares her battle with an anxiety disorder and how grace showed up in relationships with her husband and friends. Becky’s Fun Question Answers: What are you loving right now? ‘Big Magic’ by Elizabeth Gilbert What’s your favorite meal right now? Asian Pear Slaw from Spice Market What are you…

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I Choose Living: Simple Thankfulness When Life Is Hard

This year has been a challenging year. We have experienced so much loss and so much joy. It’s hard to tell if the good has outweighed the bad, but I know that some days, the weight of the bad has felt insurmountable. I’m raising two small kids without my husband. I’m learning what it means…

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Bird Sanctuary

At the south end of Long Beach Island, NJ there used to be a huge bird sanctuary. It was at least a mile of untouched beach, populated solely by birds. It was the quietest part of the island and a place of refuge for me. Hurricane Sandy wrecked the bird sanctuary. There’s still some beach…

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Easter Is Freedom

I’ve been thinking a lot about what to write for Easter this year. Since I lost my dad 18 months ago, Easter is forever changed. I understand how Jesus’ friends and family felt as they watched him die, as they buried him, and as they tried to make sense of it all. Easter is an emotionally confusing…

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