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Why Grief is Hard

The hardest parts of grief usually aren’t the parts you think. It’s the unexpected moments that catch you off guard and leave you speechless. Keith’s birthday was on Sunday. I dreaded that it came within the first week of Keith’s leaving us. I was also thankful that we could “get it over with”. It took…

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Dear Keith: 33

Dear Keith, It’s a blessing and a curse that the first of your birthdays that we celebrate without you has come so quickly. You haven’t been in heaven a week and we are already faced with a milestone day. As I’ve learned in grieving the loss of my dad, the anticipation of the day is…

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For When It Just Keeps Coming

We all experience different seasons in our lives. The last few years have been one long season of loss. Yesterday, Keith’s grampa passed away, one of our dear friends is still very ill, and another close friend’s dad’s cancer is back with a vengeance. Many of our friends and family are experiencing the loss of…

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Dear Dad: Early Mornings

Dear Dad: We got to spend a night at the lake this week. When I woke up in the morning, there was fog on the lake and the trees were brilliantly colored. I could almost see you out in a kayak, enjoying the silence and peace of the early mornings. Getting up early with Caleb…

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GriefShare

Last night was my first time at the GriefShare meeting our church hosts. Man, I’m so glad I found this program. From the second I walked in the door, I realized I had finally found a place where I feel I can be completely comfortable with my grief. Everyone in the room was grieving and…

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Grief Spirals

A friend posted this quote on Facebook this morning and it’s exactly how every grieving person feels, but can never vocalize: “For in grief nothing “stays put.” One keeps on emerging from a phase, but it always recurs. Round and round. Everything repeats. Am I going in circles, or dare I hope I am on…

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In This World There’s A Whole Lot of Trouble

In this world there’s a whole lot of trouble, baby In this world there’s a whole lot of pain In this world there’s a whole lot of trouble But a whole lot of ground to gain In this world there’s a whole lot of sorrow In this world there’s a whole lot of shame In…

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Dear Dad: Letting Go

Dear Dad: We are in New Jersey at Grandma’s house for the first time since you passed away. It’s really weird to bring my son to the house where you grew up. I love watching Caleb interact with Grandma (we call her GiGi now); they are best buds and attached at the hip. I cried…

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Dear Dad: We’re Okay

Dear Dad: It’s been a whole five weeks since we lost you. There have been days of wonderful reminiscing and harder days when we’re weepy. But for the most part, we’re okay. We’ve spent a lot of time up at the lake. Our time is spent watching movies, snuggling Caleb, reading books, taking walks, and…

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Intense Celebration

Today marks the 2 days of intense celebration of Dad’s life. Just wanted to say a quick thanks to all of you who have been so encouraging and to those of you who are here celebrating with us. Here are a verse and song that are significant to me today: Yet I am confident I…

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