expectations

Beginnings Are Complicated

I’ve never had a new beginning without a huge loss at the same time. My husband, Keith, had cancer the year we were engaged. My dad died eight hours after my son (the first grandkid) was born. My husband died one month before our daughter was born. For me, new beginnings are complicated. I’ll never…

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2017: The Year of No Expectations

My new year doesn’t start on January 1st, but several days later on January 5th. On January 5th, my life changed forever and it seems easier to mark the passing years and measure the change that has happened based on the day my husband died, rather than when the calendar flips. I find myself stuck…

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You Lost Your Expectations: Now What?

At nap time yesterday, Caleb’s precious Bear could not be found. If you know Caleb, you know that Bear is considered part of the family. They’ve been best buddies since Caleb was 18 days old. Over the course of the afternoon and evening, we tore the house apart, looking for the brown, fuzzy, friend and…

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This IS My Life (Grief & Motherhood)

Ever have those moments when you think you can’t wait til your life gets back to normal? Lately I’ve been dreaming of the days when I’m not coercing a toddler, when I don’t miss dad so much, when I actually wake up feeling rested, when the fridge isn’t empty, when the laundry basket isn’t full,…

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Dear New Mom: Balancing Expectations

Dear New Mom: Balancing expectations is extremely difficult no matter who you are or which season of life you are in. I’ve found it nearly impossible in motherhood. Take today, for example: I have had a nasty chest cold for a few days and have developed a fever. As in, the “to do” list got…

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