grieving

Disappearing Act: Let Your Grief Breathe

I disappeared this year. Not just a quiet period away from social media, but a full on disappearance from my life. I never quite made it to hang out with friends and I sat in the hallway during church, unable to engage with a sermon or much of the music. When I sat down to…

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Why You Never Leave Your Grieving Friend Alone

Why You Never Leave Your Grieving Friend Alone | BeckyLMcCoy.com

“You’ve got so much going on. I didn’t want to burden you with my hard stuff.” “I didn’t want to make you more sad. I try and only share stuff that will cheer you up.” “I wasn’t sure if I should say anything. I hate to bother you.” I’ve heard dozens of versions of those…

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When You Feel Broken At Christmas

When You Feel Broken At Christmas | BeckyLMcCoy.com

Everywhere I look, there are signs of a shiny, bright, perfect Christmas. Smiling family photos. Perfectly decorated homes and trees. Happy people enjoying happy friends at happy Christmas parties. Christmas movies that elicit giggles and end in magical first kisses. Cookies and hot cocoa and fires and snow (or at least dreams of it). Sometimes…

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When You Feel Stuck on the Outside of Your Life

A reality of grief and depression is that you often feel stuck outside of your life. Last week, I had a few days where I felt like I was watching my life and not living it. I took deep breaths, trying to ground myself, feeling like I was floating away with nothing to pull me…

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When You Crave an Adventure and Discover Healing and Rest

When Keith and I lived in Las Vegas, he was in a Family Medicine residency program and I was teaching. Our stress levels were unreal (if you’ve listened to the podcast, you know this is when my anxiety disorder was diagnosed. LISTEN HERE). A mentor of Keith’s advised us to take regular weekend trips away;…

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My Brave 2017 | Becky L McCoy

I have no expectations for 2017. I’m working on several projects and I’ve got a few dreams, but I’m not expecting any specific outcomes because, honestly, I have no control over the end results. I did pick one word for the year, but it’s more of a mindset shift than a tangible goal. Even as…

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31 Days of Real Life [10/31/16]

Halloween. An exciting day for the kids, but a hard day for me. Dad died four years ago. It’s hard to wrap my mind around that reality. I really struggled this year, missing him in so many ways. He would’ve been best buddies with Caleb and I don’t think he would’ve ever stopped laughing at…

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31 Days of Real Life [10/15/16]

This boy was my first little buddy. He came into the world during an incredibly difficult season. My dad was dying while I was in labor and eight hours after he entered my life, my dad left it. I didn’t grieve well. I thought I had it all under control, but really I was avoiding…

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31 Days of Real Life [10/13/16]

I realized that I still have the key to our house from Maryland on my keychain. It could’ve been a subconscious attempt to hold on to that life, but, honestly, I just hadn’t bothered and kept forgetting. It’s those little things that make grief hard. I look at that key and I remember figuring out…

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31 Days of Real Life [10/11/16]

Because sometimes you just need ice cream with hot fudge. I started Weight Watchers this summer and did well for a couple months, but then frequent traveling in August and September got me out of the groove. Since October is such a hard month, I decided to take the month off. It hasn’t been easy….

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