Widowhood

The Worst Part of Being a Single Mom is the Exhaustion

Being a single mom never gets easier. I’ve got my ways of coping – preschool and playdates help this introverted mama recharge and stay on top of the to do list – but there isn’t much wiggle room for when the schedule gets turned upside down. Last week, there was a snow day. I knew…

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2017: The Year of No Expectations

My new year doesn’t start on January 1st, but several days later on January 5th. On January 5th, my life changed forever and it seems easier to mark the passing years and measure the change that has happened based on the day my husband died, rather than when the calendar flips. I find myself stuck…

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31 Days of Real Life [10/15/16]

This boy was my first little buddy. He came into the world during an incredibly difficult season. My dad was dying while I was in labor and eight hours after he entered my life, my dad left it. I didn’t grieve well. I thought I had it all under control, but really I was avoiding…

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31 Days of Real Life [10/13/16]

I realized that I still have the key to our house from Maryland on my keychain. It could’ve been a subconscious attempt to hold on to that life, but, honestly, I just hadn’t bothered and kept forgetting. It’s those little things that make grief hard. I look at that key and I remember figuring out…

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31 Days of Real Life [10/10/16]

She wandered around the house this morning with her brother’s duplos in her Cookie Monster pjs, with her crazy hair and drippy, runny nose. Keith got those pjs for Caleb for his second birthday. Keith wore Cookie Monster pjs around the hospital when Caleb was born and it became a tradition to wear their pjs together every…

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31 Days of Real Life [10/1/16]

My life is a bit like an IKEA end table. All in pieces. I can see all the pieces most days. I can envision what I want life to look like when it’s all put together. I have tools to assemble the new me; the more time I spend in counseling, quiet contemplation, and prayer,…

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Karama: Honor & Dignity

On Saturday, I hosted the first of, what I hope will be, many live events. 23 ladies gathered together and shared dinner, stories, and really soft leggings (I have a significant LuLaRoe obsession, so we had a chance to do some shopping). It was such an honor to spend the evening with women who want…

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#OnComingAlive

I’m so honored to be part of The On Coming Alive Project. It’s a collection of over 70 voices who have stories of choosing to live after loss. There are stories of lost spouses, siblings, children, and parents. This is a beautiful, heart wrenching collection of honest thoughts on loss, grief, and choosing to live…

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Hope for 2016

A year ago today, my life changed. When you get married, you don’t expect the “to death do us part” vows to be relevant until you’re old. The last year has been a lot of heart ache and even more change. Our family lost Keith and gained Libby. The kids and I moved. I bought…

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Rebuilding on Unchanging Grace

I participated in the Thrive Moms fall retreat on Saturday. Each of their retreats is an incredible time of reflection and growth and the best part is that it’s virtual, so I got to watch it at home, in my pjs. The theme of the retreat was “Unshakable”: each speaker focused on ways to fortify…

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